Thinker is going back to college! (and some personal diary type stuff)

 Hello all, this is just a personal blog update so feel free to not read this as it's more of a diary than anything of worldly interest. 

Degree:

Seeing as how my science degree isn't leading me anywhere at the moment, and as I've been saving money this year during the COVID thing, and that I'm in a place now where I'm able to get reduced tuition fees, I have decided to go back to university to do a second degree.

Although I always disliked the subject and found it boring, I decided to focus on a more lucrative career in the field of computer science, computer engineering, and software engineering. Programming in C++, Java, and so on, designing digital circuits, and so on and so forth. Prior to entering this program I self taught myself some HTML, CSS, and Javascript, and thank goodness that I did since it was a great help.

I won't say which particular field just to keep it a bit vague, and actually am not quite sure what I'll stick to. The opportunities for this field are vast and the demand won't stop anytime soon. Web development, game development, software development, AI, so much more is possible with degrees in this field.

I got a bunch of transfer credit for my previous degree, but anyway this degree may take 3 years or more if I choose to finish it due to strict program requirements. So although I will start I may not necessarily finish. I may get a job opportunity and just quit without completion.

Moving to Europe:

Honestly though I think that I may move to Europe after 1 year. I hope either to the UK or France. For the UK if I am able to get a job, for France if I am able to apply, or transfer to a degree program there. (I also consider the possibility of going to Eastern Europe to somewhere in Czechoslovakia, to do a masters degree in Computer Science or Electrical Engineering. The requirements there can be waived in some cases and as long as I've taken core courses in EE or computer science I should be okay.) 

Actually, I am really hoping on transferring to a program in France, and then using that to help me immigrate there. That would be a dream come true for me to study in France and then just stay there and never return to this cesspool that I hate. 

I'm serious about moving to Europe this time, and I mean really serious. There is no life for me here in Canada or the US. These countries are gone. I have no family or roots here, only bad memories. For Canada I am not an Anglo-Saxon, or French derived person, my family came from Eastern Europe as immigrants, my Dad as I said previously was Slavic. I am not very similar in terms of background, and in terms of personality I couldn't be any further from the majority of people, but hey that's just me. I am quite different from the majority anyway, but this kind of 'culture' or cultures here really doesn't do anything for me. I am sure that I will make no real friends or girlfriends here, and I am more likely to do better elsewhere. I am just wasting my life, and still have debt that I need to pay back for previous studies. 

I live in one of the better parts of town here, where all of the yuppies come, and what does it show me...I don't want this to be my life. This isn't me and it never will be, I need to remove myself. I bet that most people reading this would hate this area (and city for that matter), unless you are a yuppie yourself (unlikely). I am lucky that I don't live straight downtown though, that area is dangerous, and here at least there is a large park about an hour's walk away, which helps me maintain my sanity. 

Finding someone?

 I love Europe, anyway, when and if, I ever move there I will start looking for a girlfriend, if not local when in France, then from somewhere else, maybe Eastern Europe, as long as she's a decent, and preferably similar to me physically. Time passes by and before I am too old I guess it's incumbent upon me to start a family and such. Although for the longest time I've been a proud lone wolf, and I prefer being alone, but hey, it's nice to have someone right? A bit of company isn't too bad. It's a tough life by yourself.

Finding someone here is terrible. I prefer people in general, and girls specifically who are similar overall, and similar in appearance to myself, in that way I am not different to any other animal. Generally speaking throughout my life I was more attracted to girls who are more similar to myself, even if they weren't always the most objectively pretty ones. This trend isn't unique to myself, it is a part of evolution.

There's very, and I mean very little, of that here. The girls that I consider to look good are fairly different from me. For the few very attractive, and usually blonde ones I see downtown, in some ways they are probably out of my league, especially when it comes to the financial requirement. I don't even have my own car. I don't need it. I'm within a 30 minutes walk to my university and workplace. I hardly even use the subway, or bus system. I don't usually need it. 

That aside, many of the skankier White females in this city seem to date Near Easterners, and the more stuck up bitches like dating rather tall men, and I am below 6 feet. Or those of the Anglo variety keep within their mating circles of others similar to themselves, I don't blame them but again what exactly am I supposed to do? 

To be honest I think I like Spanish girls (from Spain) a little bit more, but there is very little of that here, and the Eastern European ladies here are mostly not up to par.

Anyway, I will discuss that in another blog post. Also, the females, and males here generally piss me off so it really is not a good place to find someone.

Getting older

Too much to say really, it seems though that I am becoming meaner and more callous in some ways, LMAO. I am becoming more asocial, and antisocial. I am sick and tired of living around others that are nothing like me and that are completely useless to me in my life. There are hardly any benefits, and I refuse to pretend to like people just out of common courtesy. I feel like it's a waste of my time, and life, and I am just doing it because I have to and for no other reason. My new attitude is just: I don't give a rat's ass. More to say on this in the future.

Blog:

Due to all of the extra work I have to do, in my courses, as well, as my plans to move to Europe, and seeking a female companion from time to time, there is less time to blog and use disqus but I intend to still post every week.